Calculated Risk

I can't help but realised that in my effort to get the perfect gf, I'm taking a calculated risk. I'm preparing too much, such that when ever a problem should occur, I would know how to handle it. Should something go wrong, I would always have a solution. This would result me in being too perfect , thus making the relationship a little less exciting than a roller coster ride. It's difficult entering a relationship when you know it's not going to work. It does not matter even if you give it a try. If your mind say NO, your heart might say YES but if your heart says NO, then it's all over.

Calculated risk is not something I planned. It's just that I have spent enought time around girls to at least know what are they thinking or what do they want when they say certain things.
I don't want things to be perfect. I want my love life to be adventurous. I want to experience new stuffs. I want to LOVE. Haissshh. Everytime I talk about this, I get emo. Love. I don't need this now and not sooner either, I would just like IT to find me and when it comes I hope I'll be ready.

p/s:Don't they have National Service for this ?

Smile and life becomes easier to live thru